" minds change like the weather. I hope you"ll remember today is never too late to be a brand new "
Friday, December 26, 2014 ‚Ä¢ 1:24 AM ‚Ä¢ 0 commentsAssalamualaikum, hiiiii everyone okay so its december which is the last month for the year 2014. So here i am making speech for the year 2014 which is so awful, dramatic, awesome year tbh for me lol. As you guys seen in the newspaper, this year pt3 is awful or in my words sumpah teruk keputusan lmao. But alhamdulillah i manage to overcome my fears and face this pt3 paper. I wanna tell u guys abt my experience in this exam. Tbh at the beginning of the year i was so sad cause i have to move sch again like hello sapa nak jadi budak baru in the year form 3 ni pulak kan. In my class im just an average student biasa ja time first pt3 tu ckp ada exam mahu je aku terbalikkan semua benda campak ronyok ja hahah tapi apakan daya takdir Allah bagi suruh batch 99' hadap pt3. And so apa lagi hadap la.
The first thing i learn my ass off this year, i manage to skip korean dramas, korean songs in a few months until the day i have to face pt3. It was okay for me cause my sch had so many exams sampai student pun muntah buat lol. Alhamdulillah for my results, its not the worst but its not excellent. Im still grateful even my parents are not quite proud of my results still i am proud of myself. It doesnt matter what anyone else say, the thing that matters most is yourself.
If u guys saw me on the day i got my results, you guys going to think i bet that girl got all A's but i dont but im very happy and grateful and everyone in my batch should be proud cause hey come on we're the first ever batch and we study our ass off even the format always changing.
Till then guys xoxo
Saturday, March 22, 2014 ‚Ä¢ 1:01 AM ‚Ä¢ 0 comments
Assalamualaikum. Hi. Its been 4 months since i update something. Its not that i forget but im just too busy with life. Theres a lot things happen during these 4 months. I met new ppl. How much it sometimes disgust me to act said these kind of stuff. I dont 'hate' new ppl, i just love the old ones. Well, life right now for me its been a hell. I miss my friends, old teachers, old enemies lol.
I used to hang out with cool ppl that make me laugh, make me realize how important i am to them but now it's just me and me and me. Its not like i dont met new ppl, i met few of them but old ones are my fav. During the first month of 2014, i cried bcs theres no more ppl that i could tell my probs to them. No more those girls talk everyday. No more funny jokes. But now im getting used to this. Getting used of being a loner. Getting used to keep all my probs to myself. When im sad, i always listen to this one song that make me go way back.
I need some time just deliver the things that I need for now
Everything that I feel's like a warm deep calm casting over me
And it's taking me to somewhere new
If you believe that everything's alright
You won't be all alone tonight
And I'd be blessed by the light of your company,
Slowly lifting me to somewhere new
Till then xx
Sunday, November 17, 2013 ‚Ä¢ 5:13 PM ‚Ä¢ 0 comments
Since hidup selalu pindah-randah. Kawan pun jadi ramai. I never felt so bless ada ramai kawan. Time main truth or dare hari tu memang paling tk boleh lupa lawak-lawak sampai jadi sedih-sedih lol. But sincerely i'm very bless to have such wonderful friends. Siapa tk sangka orang yang aku tak pernah tegur time form 1 jadi best friends time form 2.
"Friendship kita setahun ja, tengok-tengok hg nak pindah tinggal aku"
People come and go that is what life is. Banyak kali dh org datang dan pergi dalam hidup aku dh biasa dh--. Even aku nak pindah, aku takkan lupakan. I still remember is like just yesterday i said hi to you for the first time. Memang sebab korea aku jadi rapat. Paling kecewa tengok korang nangis but aku tak boleh buat apa. Aku akan dapat kawan baru tapi no one can replace you guys. Korang kawan yg gila-gila, yg tak mungkin aku dapat kawan yang perangai sama lol. I will always remember you guys till my last breath.
Till then xx
Wednesday, November 6, 2013 ‚Ä¢ 5:53 PM ‚Ä¢ 0 comments
Exam had pass. I got my results but it is just not enough. People around me kept saying "untunglah dpt berapa a dh". Bagi aku tak cukup. Bersyukur tu aku bersyukur cuma kadang-kadang tak cukup. Bukan aku marah dapat keputusan macam tu tapi rasa macam tk adil. Mak aku kata sebab usaha tk cukup nak buat macam mana. Tapi aku rasa frust. Tak pernah rasa sesakit ni. Kadang-kadang bila nak nangis, tahan. Cakap kat diri sendiri "be tough" tapi aku tahu sendiri aku tak kuat. Kadang-kadang rasa macam luahkan semua tapi aku tahu aku tak patut. Cukup lah dengan exam. Bukan boleh kalau fikir pasal satu hal, aku akan fikir pasal semua hal. Hal kenapa aku jadi macam ni. Macam mana boleh jadi macam ni. Rasa macam nak tergelak pun ada. Orang tengok aku bahagia tapi dalam hati rasa sangat sakit. Banyak masalah sebenarnya dalam hidup aku tahu dalam hidup banyak rintangan tapi aku sendiri tak mampu harungi. I try to act touch but i can't.
Jarang nak sedih. "Bila orang tanya kenapa tak nangis, jawab kenapa nak nangis". Aku tak suka bagitahu orang perasaan aku. Aku pendam. Sedih mana pun aku, aku akan pendam. Sebenarnya sakit sangat hati dapat macam tu, tapi dah ketentuan Allah nak buat macam mana.
"Benda dah lepas, kenapa nak ungkit"
"Look at the future, think about the future, don't worry about the past"
"Heads up and smile"